So today I called out to The Morrighan, as I step deeper within her labyrinth or sacred coil, I am faced and identify deeper issues that plague me. One is substantial commitment to a path or course. Many times have I set a course and changed mid-stream. Being excited for new horizons and possibilities. The chase of something shiny syndrome. Yet I complain as I never seem to get far. Gaining well, but being passed up and then I self-examine after changing course seeing those who stayed in a particular stream bearing fruit. Don't get me wrong, I have no regrets for my choices, yet none of them so far have emblazoned my heart to such heights that I wanted to continue. Sampling many to find my one true course.
I hope to not sound too cryptic as I digress but this is me working things out with my devotionals, messages, and magick. I did take a nice photo this morning before my devotionals of a tree lit from the sun amidst blackened clouds. In this photo, to me it is balanced seasonally and elementally. This is the middle path. The one I am striving for. It is in the distance and through The Morrighan's maze I believe I will get there and find my heart emblazoned and passionate, loving myself, my career, and in tune with the energies of spirit and earth.
As I age I know my choices will have more of an impact. Starting at level 1 is harder for me now than it was when I was young. Letting go of my ego is not so much the issue as having a living wage and more than that, loving what I do and who I am becoming. I am not satisfied and feel like things are just beginning, yet here I am in my mid-forties. Could I have not learned these lessons earlier? A lifetime is too short, seriously.