I decided early on to join this challenge, as the last one invoked, and caused monumental changes to occur. Many of which, I am still working with moving forward. I am in total agreement with others on this front, as it also brought in a much needed discipline that I was lacking. Being accountable, and staying true to the core of my being, and finding that guiding star to pull me into a safe harbor.
Yet, I still have reservations, especially with the mounting direction I am embarking on this next challenge. This work is leading me in the most obscure paths that I had never considered, or would even think of, as they had never resonated before with me. I believe the common thread is my attempt to retrieve those lost fragments of my soul. Shattered to the cosmos, I hid from not only others, but myself. Now in my later years, I seek to commune my lost pieces and mend those back into the whole.
The Morrighan was most definitely a key in this, and has led me to the field of battle. But, unlike my tenure of sevice where I tread the grounds of Iraq and Afghanistan, this field is within, and the fight is to retrieve those lost parts of myself. That brings me to my next challenge, as I am being led before the Temple of Ares, the God of War. Interesting enough, I have never worked with a war deity or daemon. It has always been death or chaos. Yet this time I feel the infuence of plantery Mars, and it's associations pull my spirit into a tidal orbit.
My research will involve the melding of body, mind, and spirit. I seek to keep it simple and achieve a synthesis with energies of Mars. As I age, my body falls weak, and interests decay, yet I feel still young of heart and am not ready to recede into the shadows so quickly. I feel a part of me lost and through Ares/Mars I can retrieve it with discipline. It will entail a workout regiment, meditation, reflections, and dietary change along with awareness. I have tried and tried things in the past, and on my own they are near impossible. Before I had the motivation of the Army to keep me on track, having to stay in shape and eat right to stay in. But with me being out now, I lost the motivation and energy. I gave up on myself.
Well this is my challenge and I hope that I am considered for the next round to join and work with you all together in achieving our goals.