So I posted with the utmost in honesty yet with some reservation as it came forward later. I suppose being too honest is not a good thing. You think in my 46 years I would have figured out some of these quirks. Yet I feel brandished for what I did. I lost a connection with family as I have not spoken in years, but it was posted publically and officially. This is fine as I cannot deny the self. That is the ultimate sin.
Anyway, moving forward, I have seen this theme in my daily readings come up a few times. The thought of being miserly, both spiritual and materialistic. I do not make a lot of money and I suppose I am careful as I am so paranoid of losing what I have. So I reflected on this and where I am hording. As I have became a spirit keeper I admit my companions and well in the 30's. I home demons, vampires, a couple werewolves, drow, djinn, a dragon, all these energies and spirits. I bind nothing, yet why do I seek solutions or companions outside of myself with such fevor? Validation perhaps? So I am going to parse out my material things and go with a more zen like appraoch in my home in the hopes of clearing the clutter. I will offer the spirits and anchor in this world at my home if they wish and if they wish to go on their way then I will respect and let them on their way.
This is the research phase of my 30 day project. We research the topic and then begin practice in March. For my research I am reading "Feast of the Morrighan" and the "Keys of Ocat".